Alex's monologue "As we forgive those"

I have chosen this monologue as I feel like it will be a good challenge for me, but I think if I can perform it effectively it could improve my skills and hopefully stand out at auditions.
I also feel like I can relate to some of the characters feelings, which will mean I can understand her and portray her situation believably.

During our last lesson we worked on a monologue of our choice, we experimented with vocal skills , the characters feelings and how we can portay them.

• PROJECTION -  The strength  and volume of your voice. It is imporant as an audience or panel need to hear everything you are saying and how well you are emoting the monologue. I havn't performed mine infront of everybody yet, therefore I dont know how loud I am yet but I have practised projecting my voice (in the monologue) at home and in the theatre, and will continue to work on this vocal aspect of the monologue.
• ENUNCIATION - The articulation of speech/the clearness of words. This is improtant because you need to  make what you are saying clear to others, otherwise they might not even understand what your monologue is about. I think my enunciation is fine in this monologue, but there are times when she gets quite angry and speaks fairy fast, therefore i need to practise these sections slower to make sure I don't get into a habit of letting my enunciation slip in these sections.
• ACCENT OR DIALECT - A distinctive mode of pronunciation of a language, esp. one associated with a particular nation, locality, or social class. Its important to make sure that your character has the same accent as you or you can do the accent to a high standard, because if you have a completely different accent, it won't sound believable. Also it means you have come from a different social background to the character, therefore you won't be able to relate to them very well. As I know my accent skills are poor at the moment I made sure the character had a similar accent to mine. So I don't have to worry about the accent to much.
• INTENTION OF MONOLOGUE - Its important to get accross why the character is saying and feeling what she is, so you can portray the characters story. Her intention is to tell her sister how she feels but in an odd sort of way its also an apology and trying to get rid of the past tension between them in an honest outburst.
• EXPERIMENTATION - Trying out new concepts or ways of doing things. Its crucial to experinent with monologues, as otherwise you won't find out the best way of performing it or what works for you. I have tried using allot/very little movement, using anger as the main emotion, using her sorryness and vulnribility as the main factor or saying it quite subdued yet you can see she is very hurt secretly. At the moment I am using a mixture of the emotions,  and a small amount of movment that I feel its enough.
• GIVEN CIRCUMSTANCES - what the author or playwright have given you as an actor to work with in terms of where you are, who you are, what you are doing, and why you are doing it. You need to think about the imformation that is already there and take in into account otherwise you could miss out important imformation about the character and thier personality. I made sure I knew about where "Alex" was and took into account all of the information I was given (which isn't actually that much in this script).
• MAGIC IF - The magic'if' is where you as the actor puts yourself in the position of your character and you use how you would react in that situation. Its important that you can use natural reactions and emotions in monologues so the acting comes more naturally and realistically. I thought about how I would feel in "Alex's" situation and am now using this in the monologue. I think she would be feeling very sorry and secretly knows she has done wrong, yet the anger within her won't let her admit it. I know how anger can block out anything else, now I think I understand how she is feeling I can put myself in her situation.